Hello Everyone!

WOW. What a crazy time it’s been since the lockdown and quarantine. I have been going through so many ups and downs since then. The beginning of the year started off with so much hope and newness, but this transition is much bigger than me; it’s worldly. Earthly. Universally. Cosmically. We are changing.

I started this year with optimism and a fearless attitude. I was focused and determined and inspired. I had a good routine going and was really putting in the time with my daily writing. When Covid hit everything was upended and our reality was shook. For some people they weren’t as effected or took it in stride, but the abrupt change greatly effected me both inside and out. I fell into a depression and my anxiety skyrocketed. I couldn’t be productive and inspiration was gone. I was a lump.

After a month I saw how destructive and negative my mindset was and swore to change. I started incorporating yoga in my morning routine and slowly got my mind and body right. The weather started changing and things began looking up.

Good things happened; bad things happened.

I lost weight and gained health.

I decided to get boobs.

It took forever to get unemployment but I had family to help until it came through.

I got days in the pool but a lot of it was spent alone.

I lost an ex and great friend to me. We’ve only known each other 3 years but we shared a lot of experiences together. But for reasons of my own I couldn’t see the relationship evolving into more than a friendship without some things changing and he couldn’t accept that. So he cut me out. I respect his decision but it still hurts. I’ll always have a special place for him and be grateful for our time together.

I got to spend so much quality time with my son and now that I’m back to work I realize how special that was and how I must prioritize it more, even when it’s so hard to do being a single working mom being pulled in a million directions.

I met an amazing person who became my friend but is now becoming more than that. He is kind and strong and stoic and I’m sure I’ll be writing more about him in time.

I’ve been back to work for 3 weeks now with our ‘new normal’ guidelines and I’m starting to feel a bit better; almost back to where I was at the start of the year but different. Wiser, stronger, more resilient. Ready to take on anything that comes my way. The good the bad, it doesn’t matter, in the end, it’s all the same to me.

All that to say, I’m going to be rededicating myself to my passion and will have more consistent content coming up here.

I hope you all are well. Much love. ❤️