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I had to go to a church today

To get food for me and my son

Because I have no money

Because I’m doing my part

Or thats what they’re calling it

My poverty for others lives

For hospital beds and ventilators

That they don’t have

Asking for help

What a shameful thing

But it’s not because of my failing

Is it my fault I live check to check

When things are ‘normal’ I’m fine

I can take care of my son and I

But I sense this downward spiral

This virus is like a zombie

Overpowering me in ways that are

Out of my control

Rippin off bits of my life

Left vulnerable and alone

Mental health breakdown

My soul needs healing

I try to reach within

But there’s walls again

A quarantine of mind body and soul

Disconnected for the common good

But I don’t see the good anymore

The silver lining has turned grey

And here I lay and here I stay

Throbbing with fear

One single tear

Falls

No one knows

Because I’m all alone

Scrollin on my phone

Past all the other mindless ones

All these memes I want to scream

I try to sleep but I can’t dream

Only darkness comes my way

The dark clouds rollin in

Covid 19 you’re a goddamn nightmare

What they aren’t telling us is a constant fear

I can’t even hold my loved ones near

My son won’t even go back to school

How do I explain this to 6 year old ears?

Screaming with his father on the phone

Emotions so high they’re off the charts

Wishing I was stronger than this

Feelings always been my weakness

The highs and lows like a quickening contraction

What am I birthing? A stillborn wakening.

Negative energy I know is no good

I try to positively bide my time

But no one has answers

Are we all gonna die?

And if we don’t will we be left

Like roadkill an afterthought

With no means to survive?